..... which roughly translates as "time to get your finger out of your arse". Well, so my dad used to tell me, anyway!
Despite the positive nature of my last post 10 weeks ago, I had a little bit of a relapse into my hibernation and have barely done any work on my novel, or indeed anything of a productive nature at all. Aside from making it out a couple of times to catch up with friends, I found myself feeling rather disconnected and spent most of my time back under my blanket with Savannah watching endless re-runs of Law & Order and generally feeling rather miserable.
My mood had started to lift by the time the World Cup started, but thanks to the timing of the games over here - generally 9am, 12pm and 3pm - my whole day was pretty much taken up with watching games and quickly walking Savannah and doing any necessary chores at half-time or in between games! This all helped to raise my spirits as I am a huge fan of the World Cup and I think I only missed maybe 4 or 5 games, but was definitely not great for my productivity!!
A further boost to my mood came in the form of my dear friend Cara, who came to stay with me for a couple of weeks - hurrah! Thanks to a little bit of illness on both sides we spent a few days confined to the sofa, but even though we didn't get out to do (or drink!) as much as we had originally planned we had a wonderful time just hanging out and catching up.
Over the last 5 weeks I have managed to break the hibernation spell and I've been making it out of the house more and actively seeking fun. I have met some wonderful new people recently and it has been refreshing to be around a few people who did not know me while I was at my lowest point or share in my grief, although I will forever be grateful for the bond I share with those who were.
In the midst of all this I passed another milestone as the 4th of July marked 6 months since Peter's death, and while the day was tinged with a little sadness it was also filled with much joy as I was hosting the patriotic celebrations this year and was blessed to be able to fill my home with so many friends who I love and adore, as well as being able to keep busy and not have time to dwell.
And so here I am today, my soul somewhat rejuvenated by Cara's visit and the fun times I have found over the last few weeks. I feel positive, and dare I say productive, again. Achieving my goals for the year will be a lot harder since I lost so much time hiding under my blanket, but I feel up for the challenge and I know now that if I am to have any chance at all then I have not even a minute to waste!!
So on that note, I had better go get on with it!! Day 1's agenda is dealing with all the paperwork that has accumulated on my desk for the last few weeks (some of it is probably even important - whoops!) and making myself a beautiful long To Do list packed full of all the things I can look forward to checking off!
I hope to be able to update you all soon with lots more happy positive news!!
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